Antsy

School is nearing the end, and I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is so cool, before my paper was due, there was this large boulder (in the form of a paper), but it is gone, I chipped away at that. I can see it, it isn't within reach, but the glow gets brighter and brighter everyday!
For those of you who don't know, I am graduating from nursing school June 11th. I can't wait! It has been a lifelong dream for me. I know that sounds corny, but I have always wanted to be a nurse, as long as I can remember, and soon...I will be!! Yeah
I am such a procrastinator. My friend has this screensaver that says "Procrastination; hard work always pays off in the end, but laziness pays off now", so I went online and bought the poster. I am gonna frame it and hang it in my house. I think it is so perfect for me. Anyone who knows me, knows I am the biggest procrastinator, but also knows, I work BEST under pressure! Which is why I waited until my paper was due in one week before I even started. We have had 6 months to work on it. But, in my defense, and as you should know (if you ahve been reading my blog) is I started my paper one week before it was due, but I finished on Monday (due Thursday), and even turned it in early on Wednesday!!
Yeah, I am pretty proud of that!
Felt good to turn something in early!

Broken Heart

You thought I was writing about myself, didn't you? WEll, I am not! My friend's were engaged to be married and I was to be the bridesmaid in a Sept. wedding. I was so excited, they were a great couple, have been together through so much and have made a great couple years together.
They break up!
I have made good friends with Kasandra, and Donnie, both! They were both firefighters at my station, I went through fire academy with Kasandra...they are both considered good friends!
They break up!
What am I to do...I can't choose. Kasandra is doing what she always does after breakups....run through a bunch of random guys and totally rub it in the ex-fiances face. I love her, I really do, but she has bad rep for horrible break-ups...Donnie should know this....he has seen her through a couple before they got together, but he expects it to be different with him.
They are still living together, have to wait to afford to move out-that type of thing! So, in the meantime Kasandra is out there "dating" God knows who, and Donniw calls me everytime she dows something bad and expects me to call her and "talk some sense into her"
As if I am gonna change her ways, when you break-up all you want to do is keep yourself busy, so you aren't thinking of the other one...
BUt not Donnie, he is constantly begging her to stop and asking her what she is up to, and calling her....basically making it horrible for him, and pushing her further and further away.
He doesn't realize....I try to tell him, STOP calling her, she needs to be left alone to get over you, and you need to leave her alone to get over HER!
Then, he says I am gonna get called for everytime he wants to call her...me being the good friend...sure call me anytime!
I think that might have been a BIG mistake...we'll see! I told him not to call at 4 am....he said he is finally get a full night's sleep, so I should not be getting a call at 4 am....I had BETTER not get a call at 4am!!!

Other blogs

you know....i have read lots of other people's blogs lately. I love them, they are so creative. It makes me feel like I either 1) have a boring life, or 2) just don't know how to express myself in a letter. I think it is a little of both.
I love my friends blogs, they talk about so much, but right now, I don't seem to have much to talk about. I will get better. I have only been at this for less than 2 weeks! It takes time, it takes months...keep reading, it will get better, I promise!

Shopping!

Yes, I am a girl, and yes I do like shopping. Not so much getting the new stuff (which is fun), but just getting out and spending time with your family and friends. My sister-in-law called me this morning, and we went out shopping and hanging out all day, it was so much fun! It is crazy busy though. All these teenagers infest the mall, as if the coolest hang out on earth. They do nothing but walk around gossiping and laughing, but mostlty getting in your way. Oh well, I still had fun. We went to lunch and the mall and to Walmart, Target, Shopko, Best Buy....we hit the town today. It was great getting out and not sitting at home all day.
Next up tonight....Rodeo with my neighbors. I haven't been to a rodeo in about 2 years, but they are super fun!
No more sitting at home....Im party girl now! My paper is done, and it finally feels like I can go do things without having that weighing on me!

WB

I love shows on the WB! I get made fun of for it too, but you know what, I like them. My favorite is Gilmore Girls and Jack and Bobby. I totally loved the Mountain when it was on, but they just cancelled it mid show. I was very dissappointed.
Gilmore girls is so much fun cuz of the banter back and forth. It is so cool. I wish I could be like that sometimes.
No I don't look up to the shows, I watch for pure, mindless entertainment. It is like teenage drama/soap. Way better than daytime soaps. You miss 2 weeks of a show and you barely miss 30 minutes of their lives.
I am gonna stick to my WB shows, it is the only TV I really watch.

Guy's Officially suck!

Okay, so this guy that persues ME, decides that once he has got me...he is all confused! That he is reluctant to get involved....blah, blah, blah!
I hate men! I swear.
First he doesn't do anything for Vday....I, (stupid me) make excuses and say...oh he worked late, oh he is busy, maybe it is too early....yeah right!
He just doesn't want to "date", but yet he wants to have the benefit of dating and the benefit of my friendship, but doesn't want to take me out like a real date would!
Well, I don't need him.
I have school!
I have my job,
and most of all, I have my BIG move to look forward to!
That's right, I am moving to a big city at the end of nursing school. My sister lives there, and there is a way bigger gene pool than this little sorry town!
I can be friends with this little booger, but I am not devoting anymore time to him than he deserves, and that ain't much!
Here's to a better life without men right now!

Random thoughts

My paper is officially DONE! Signed, sealed and (almost) delivered! I am so excited, that light at the end of the tunnel is starting to shine through!!
My Vday sucked, just as I thought it would. The guy I am dating worked 16 hours today and has to go back and do it again tomorrow, so he didn't even acknowledge today. I am very dissappointed. But then again, is it too early? When do you know. I want to be mad at him, but I don't blame him, it is a stupid holiday anyhow. But, my friends were great. I got a couple cards and some chocolate. It just wasn't the same.
I got into the preceptor program in nursing school. It is something you have to apply for and it only goes to those at the top of the class! Yeah for me! I will start that next quarter for spring. Then....I am done with nursing school, that deserves a doube yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
I wish I had alot more fun excursions to share about, but right now my life is boring. As soon as I go out more, I will write more! School is keeping me pretty busy, and Jeff never asks me to go out. Oh well, before Jeff, I never went out much anyhow.
I get to go out with my cool friend Mara when I go visit her in Spokane. I think my next planned visit to see her is at the end of this month! I look forward to that, cuz I get to hang out and go out karaoke-ing, and to cool country bars and make a fool of myself swing dancing! I get to work up there too and pay for my teip so it is awesome.
Well, I think I will have to go to bed now, I should be sleeping right now, since I have to get up at 5:30am to go to clinicals, but I can't sleep!
I think I will have to get to sleep eventually, might as well try again!

Update

Alright, my paper is just about finished. I am ready to start my reference page. I jsut need to put the final touches on tomorrow, and I am DONE! I am so excited, it has been a heck of a few days, but I managed to type a report totalling about 35 pages in length. I was worried about getting to the 20 that was required, instead...I passed the maximum30. I think I will be okay though. It is just the way the paper if formatted. NExt update will be my grade...but that will be about 4 weeks away, so since I have to wait...so do you!

Valentine's Day

I hate V day! It is really bad when you don't have someone, but I don't think it is the worse. You see...you know your aren't dating anyone, so you know you won't get a valentine. Except from your friends and parents of course (not the ones you hope for :) ) But....when you are seeing someone, you wonder....hmmm....is it too early? Is he romantic? Did he really forget it, or is he holding out to surprise you? I think in my case, he forgot! Or doesn't care! I guess I will ahve to find out, but he has to work OT on Mon and Tues, so I doubt I will get to talk to him, little lone see him. I barely get to talk to him when he works normal time! I hate Vday! It is the lonliest holiday, even when you are dating someone!
Oh well! It isn't like this will be the first Vday alone....I have spent many alone....matter of fact, I have only had one Vday with a special someone, and we were technically broken up! Not one I want to remember....but it is the only one I have so far!

This paper sucks!

Okay, so I finally got off my lazy ass, and decided to start typing. Well, apparently I got type happy and no I have too much. I am on page 29, and still ahve at least another 10 pages of required info to put into it. I don't know where to cut. I don't know what to do. I hope I just don't get docked for writing too much! I am sure I can tone it down in some places, but 10 pages? I don't know! I have two more full days planned to work on it, but for tonight....I am done! I may hand write some diagnosis ideas, but no more typing. Kepp you updated as I know what is going on!

still procrastinating....

I am still procrastinating. I got started at least yesterday. I wrote 4 sentences, then i was done! I hate papers as you can see! I guess I had better get started.....I'll keep you posted on my progress, I don't see it going that fast though!

School Papers

Hello again, I am horrible at writing freq, bear with me! I am on my computer right now, supposed to be starting my paper. I keep procrastinating. This paper is due in one week! I have had 6 months to work on it, but do you think I have started yet? Nope! I haven't! And what am I doing now? Nothing, I am typing on my blog! I really should get started, but it is just the fact of getting started. I have set aside this afternoon, tomorrow afternoon and allday Sat, Sun and Mon. I think I should be able to get it done by then. That still leaves me with a couple days to relax before it is due! I know you are prpbab;y thinking why not just get it done, it can't be that bad, right? Wrong, it can be that bad and it is that bad. I hate papers, I am not an English major I am a nursing student! I didn't choose to write papers as my life goal. I hate them, and besides this is not just a paper, it is the top dog of papers. It is a 30 page paper on a patient I took care of, and I have to basically spell out everything I did for the patient, and everything that I need to know about taking care of patients with the disease process and...and...and......exactly, not just a paper! But, I guess if I want to get it done, I actually have to start it! So....here goes nothing!