Long Time No See

Hey everyone, I know I haven't written in a while, sorry bout that. I have been so busy. I went to Montana for my friends bridal/bachalorette party this last weekend. I had a blast. It was so much fun! The bridal shower was so beautiful, she had so many people there, and her two twin sisters hosted it. It was awesome, first it was atop the tallest building, so we had a great view! Second, it was decorated so good, and they served a brunch. It was really the coolest.
Then later in the night, we all went out for the bachalorette party. It was a blast....we went from bar-to-bar in a limo, and we dang karaoke and danced on the bars, she had to kiss some random guy (at the same bar her fiance was partying at that night!) It was so much fun!
I had a blast in Montana, I had never been there before. I even went running! Yes, I did say running. Kat said we wouldn't have time for running, but I brought my stuff anyhow! I made time. I convinced her to go the morning of the bridal shower...to help relieve stress and anxiety. It was great, I got up early and had amaing energy, it was great. Then, I went again on Sunday. So I decided to keep running, I need to get back to my pre-nursing school weight!
Another crazy idea....I am training for a half marathon in 11 days. That gives me a total of 15 days training (after not running more then 12 times in about 10 months), I know I am crazy. I am going to run Race for the Roses in Portland, I run this run every year, and the first year I ran it, I trained in 2 weeks, so I should be good to go this time too. I am not expecting to be able to run the whole way, but I am expecting to be able to finish! That is all I care about! Even if I don't finish, at least it got me started running again!
I plan to keep running, cuz running is what is going to keep me skinny!
I am trying to catch you all up....Jeff....well, we are still just friends, he is currently trying to date everyone but me! Oh well, we are great friends, and I think that is best! We still talk every day/night, and we hang out every once in a while. We might be going to a movie this weekend....we'll see if that actually happens!
School....school is good, keeping me busy. I liked having the time off for spring break. Ready to get this qtr over with. Clinicals are good....I get to be in the ICU at Lourdes (not my first choice, but I like it!), my preceptor is Terri, she is really cool and I am learning lots. Although, it still feels like I am just a free worker. I do two 12 hr shifts every other weekend, so to me it is working for free. I hate that part, but I only have 1 1/2 more months for clinicals. I finish those around May 22. Don't forget June 11th is graduation (and Rachel's bday)! So please plan on coming, I will send you all an invite!
Portland....no job yet, but it is still early. I need to get some more apps in, maybe I will do that next. I have a few apartments narrowed down, but I have to wait til mid-may to decide for sure with vacancy and current specials. Each of the apartments I have picked out all have great qualities about them, but they each have at least one thing I don't like too. So I will just have to weigh my options when I get there.
Jen.....she is still preggo! I can't wait to go see her again, she should be showing by now! I have no pics, but as soon as I do, I will post them if she lets me! She is due in the beginning of October if anyone wants to wish her congrats or anything....!
Well, I think that is all for now, I will keep you all posted of more updates. I will do better at posting more frequently from now on!
Have a great day!

Big City Life

So, I am out visiting my sister in Portland! I love it here! I have been out apartment shopping all day (okay I admit, only half today, but all day yesterday!) I think I have it down to just a few choices. They are all very nice for both me and Charlie! I want to make sure there is lots of grass for him, and running areas for me. I think, out of all the apratment I looked at, if I could take a little from each one and mix it all together, i would have the greatest apartment ever. But, I think I am gonna have to pick the better parts and give in on some of the others.
I can't wait to move now! I am so excited about starting a new life out here. I love it here, it is great. I am getting around all over pretty good, so I don't think it will take me that long to get used to things.
I haven't done the hospital searching yet, that comes Mon and Tues., but I am pretty excited about knowing where the different hospitals are too.
I stopped at Tualitin Fire Dept today. I stopped at the front door...locked! So I pulled around back stopped near the open bay doors, and this old guy comes out...with a look to kill ( why did you park here, this isn't public parking, lady!), but as soon as I introduced myself as a fellow fire deptartmentee, he was very pleasant (well nice to meet you....handshake....what can I do for ya?). Amazing how they are willing to be so rude, until you announce you are one of them....oh well, I would probab;y do the same thing!
So, my point....I really want to be in an area that has a volunteer fire dept, I really miss it now, so I want to try and get on down there (after I get back in shape of course!). Jen and I have already started running, last night we went out for a 3 mile (I run, they walk) jaunt! It felt so good to start slow and be able to go the distance (even if it is only 3 miles). Maybe, that will motivate me to start running at home....I doubt it though. I need to start. I am ready to lose this weight again!
I was out with my cousin and her two kids today....her son was walking near me in a store and was trying to get around me...as he is steering clear of me he says "your butt is so big", I know, I couldn't believe it either, but kids are very honest, and if he thinks my butt is so big, then it is! ( Don't worry, this isn't a shock to me, I have known for quite a while now!)
Amazing, I needed a kid to tell me my butt was big to start motivating me to run....I guess whatever works! Ta-Ta

Grades.... and some other stuff too!

I promised I would keep you all updated with my paper, so here it is....all the hard work....
drum roll please...

brrrrrrrr (that is the best drum roll I could do)....

95/100

That is right....

95! All that hard work for 3 days! We had 6 months to work on it! :)

I so excited, that means I'm going into my final quarter of nursing school!
Yes!!
You do not know how wonderful it feels to finally be at the end! i bet it is gonna feel so much better at the end of this quarter!! But the beginning feels pretty good too!
Graduation June 11! You are all invited!!

Oh yeah, and counting down the days... T minus 3 months and counting, til I get to move to Portland to visit my pregnant sister!! Oh yeah baby!

I love Spring!

Spring is amazing! It is just great, the sunny days, the birds chirping, the warm weather. I just get so excited to finally walk outside without a coat and still feel comfortable. I think I like spring better than summer, because summer has been so hot lately!
I am so excited, I am really gonna start getting active again. I took Charlie (my mini-dachshund) to the park the other day and he loved it! He was talking to anyone that would listen to him, he was so happy. I think I will take him again today. He needs to get out like that, my apt is so small for him, and I am gone all day, I love when I get to spend the day with my baby!
I also went and played tennis for the first time since high school! Scary...I know! But, I wasn't half bad! I took my cousin with me. He has never played before so we were playing catch the ball alot more, but he caught on pretty quickly! With a little more practice, we might be able to get a game or two going. I loved tennis back in HS, I started my freshman year, and my sophmore year I was on Varsity. Made me feel pretty good. I really like it. I had a 3 1/2 hour match once. I was ahead too, 5 games to 2, then I got excited about winning, and something happened....the girl came back and won 7-5, I couldn't believe it, but it was a good match the whole time. That is the longest one, alot of them were way shorter, but that was a good one! I think it was in Moses Lake...I could be wrong! I know it was an away game...
Sorry, got caught up in the story, I know I was rambling!
I am gonna start being active everyday, something, even if it is little. Running will come soon, but with school and work, I don't want to put too much pressure on the running....but, I also want to keep my interest, so I am gonna keep it changing!
I will keep you posted on my activities!!

Saturdays are great!

You know, I love Saturdays! There was a time when I worked every weekend, but now....I get every weekend off, and it is great!
Today, I am gonna bake some cookies for a bonfire/potluck horseback riding day! My friend Bonnie has some horses and she is having a big get together today. I am so excited cuz I don't get to ride horses that often (pretty close to none at all), so I can't wait. I went on my birthday this year, but it was sooo cold that I could only ride for abour 45 minutes. It was very icy out too, so since I am a novice rider, she just had me walking in the backyard, but I still had fun. Today, it is sunny and gonna get pretty warm out (about 60-65), so I might actually get to ride a little more.
I have some pics of me riding in January, I will try to scan them and post them for all to see!
Hope everyone has a great Saturday!

Finally Over!

Today was my last day at clinicals for this qtr. That means all I have left is one more qtr of hell, and I will be a real nurse! I am so excited. Today, since it was our last day, we got to leave early! Thank God! Cuz let me tell you, I had nothing to do today!
Enough about school, even I am getting tired of hearing about it.
Guys....well I don't have one (still!), so I don't have much to talk about. I am still talking to Jeff (the one that pursues me, then decides he is having issues of his own). We talk every night, is that weird? He always calls and talks to me for an hour or so before heading to bed. We talk about random stuff, anything really...doesn't matter. We are always laughing at ourselves, and each other! I hate guys...I still like him! I have to quit this!
Why do guys do those things....he says " I like you, and I like hanging out with, and I like talking to you, but (the dreaded BUT), it just feels like friends right now!"
Whatever
Guys totally suck!
Oh well, you know I keep telling myself that I am leaving in little more than 3 months, that I need not enter a relationship, and that friends is just fine!
Do I really believe that, or am I just convincing myself that?
I am not sure! Depends on the day and time I ask myself.
Today, I am happy we are friends and I like where we are (Bullshit!)!! Tomorrow....probably same!
I can't decide, so seriously, I think friends is better than nothing at this point!
And I think we are good friends, I like having someone to talk to daily, and that I can talk about anything with him, I think that is good enough for me!
Yeah....good enough for me, for now!

Antsy

School is nearing the end, and I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is so cool, before my paper was due, there was this large boulder (in the form of a paper), but it is gone, I chipped away at that. I can see it, it isn't within reach, but the glow gets brighter and brighter everyday!
For those of you who don't know, I am graduating from nursing school June 11th. I can't wait! It has been a lifelong dream for me. I know that sounds corny, but I have always wanted to be a nurse, as long as I can remember, and soon...I will be!! Yeah
I am such a procrastinator. My friend has this screensaver that says "Procrastination; hard work always pays off in the end, but laziness pays off now", so I went online and bought the poster. I am gonna frame it and hang it in my house. I think it is so perfect for me. Anyone who knows me, knows I am the biggest procrastinator, but also knows, I work BEST under pressure! Which is why I waited until my paper was due in one week before I even started. We have had 6 months to work on it. But, in my defense, and as you should know (if you ahve been reading my blog) is I started my paper one week before it was due, but I finished on Monday (due Thursday), and even turned it in early on Wednesday!!
Yeah, I am pretty proud of that!
Felt good to turn something in early!

Broken Heart

You thought I was writing about myself, didn't you? WEll, I am not! My friend's were engaged to be married and I was to be the bridesmaid in a Sept. wedding. I was so excited, they were a great couple, have been together through so much and have made a great couple years together.
They break up!
I have made good friends with Kasandra, and Donnie, both! They were both firefighters at my station, I went through fire academy with Kasandra...they are both considered good friends!
They break up!
What am I to do...I can't choose. Kasandra is doing what she always does after breakups....run through a bunch of random guys and totally rub it in the ex-fiances face. I love her, I really do, but she has bad rep for horrible break-ups...Donnie should know this....he has seen her through a couple before they got together, but he expects it to be different with him.
They are still living together, have to wait to afford to move out-that type of thing! So, in the meantime Kasandra is out there "dating" God knows who, and Donniw calls me everytime she dows something bad and expects me to call her and "talk some sense into her"
As if I am gonna change her ways, when you break-up all you want to do is keep yourself busy, so you aren't thinking of the other one...
BUt not Donnie, he is constantly begging her to stop and asking her what she is up to, and calling her....basically making it horrible for him, and pushing her further and further away.
He doesn't realize....I try to tell him, STOP calling her, she needs to be left alone to get over you, and you need to leave her alone to get over HER!
Then, he says I am gonna get called for everytime he wants to call her...me being the good friend...sure call me anytime!
I think that might have been a BIG mistake...we'll see! I told him not to call at 4 am....he said he is finally get a full night's sleep, so I should not be getting a call at 4 am....I had BETTER not get a call at 4am!!!

Other blogs

you know....i have read lots of other people's blogs lately. I love them, they are so creative. It makes me feel like I either 1) have a boring life, or 2) just don't know how to express myself in a letter. I think it is a little of both.
I love my friends blogs, they talk about so much, but right now, I don't seem to have much to talk about. I will get better. I have only been at this for less than 2 weeks! It takes time, it takes months...keep reading, it will get better, I promise!

Shopping!

Yes, I am a girl, and yes I do like shopping. Not so much getting the new stuff (which is fun), but just getting out and spending time with your family and friends. My sister-in-law called me this morning, and we went out shopping and hanging out all day, it was so much fun! It is crazy busy though. All these teenagers infest the mall, as if the coolest hang out on earth. They do nothing but walk around gossiping and laughing, but mostlty getting in your way. Oh well, I still had fun. We went to lunch and the mall and to Walmart, Target, Shopko, Best Buy....we hit the town today. It was great getting out and not sitting at home all day.
Next up tonight....Rodeo with my neighbors. I haven't been to a rodeo in about 2 years, but they are super fun!
No more sitting at home....Im party girl now! My paper is done, and it finally feels like I can go do things without having that weighing on me!

WB

I love shows on the WB! I get made fun of for it too, but you know what, I like them. My favorite is Gilmore Girls and Jack and Bobby. I totally loved the Mountain when it was on, but they just cancelled it mid show. I was very dissappointed.
Gilmore girls is so much fun cuz of the banter back and forth. It is so cool. I wish I could be like that sometimes.
No I don't look up to the shows, I watch for pure, mindless entertainment. It is like teenage drama/soap. Way better than daytime soaps. You miss 2 weeks of a show and you barely miss 30 minutes of their lives.
I am gonna stick to my WB shows, it is the only TV I really watch.

Guy's Officially suck!

Okay, so this guy that persues ME, decides that once he has got me...he is all confused! That he is reluctant to get involved....blah, blah, blah!
I hate men! I swear.
First he doesn't do anything for Vday....I, (stupid me) make excuses and say...oh he worked late, oh he is busy, maybe it is too early....yeah right!
He just doesn't want to "date", but yet he wants to have the benefit of dating and the benefit of my friendship, but doesn't want to take me out like a real date would!
Well, I don't need him.
I have school!
I have my job,
and most of all, I have my BIG move to look forward to!
That's right, I am moving to a big city at the end of nursing school. My sister lives there, and there is a way bigger gene pool than this little sorry town!
I can be friends with this little booger, but I am not devoting anymore time to him than he deserves, and that ain't much!
Here's to a better life without men right now!

Random thoughts

My paper is officially DONE! Signed, sealed and (almost) delivered! I am so excited, that light at the end of the tunnel is starting to shine through!!
My Vday sucked, just as I thought it would. The guy I am dating worked 16 hours today and has to go back and do it again tomorrow, so he didn't even acknowledge today. I am very dissappointed. But then again, is it too early? When do you know. I want to be mad at him, but I don't blame him, it is a stupid holiday anyhow. But, my friends were great. I got a couple cards and some chocolate. It just wasn't the same.
I got into the preceptor program in nursing school. It is something you have to apply for and it only goes to those at the top of the class! Yeah for me! I will start that next quarter for spring. Then....I am done with nursing school, that deserves a doube yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
I wish I had alot more fun excursions to share about, but right now my life is boring. As soon as I go out more, I will write more! School is keeping me pretty busy, and Jeff never asks me to go out. Oh well, before Jeff, I never went out much anyhow.
I get to go out with my cool friend Mara when I go visit her in Spokane. I think my next planned visit to see her is at the end of this month! I look forward to that, cuz I get to hang out and go out karaoke-ing, and to cool country bars and make a fool of myself swing dancing! I get to work up there too and pay for my teip so it is awesome.
Well, I think I will have to go to bed now, I should be sleeping right now, since I have to get up at 5:30am to go to clinicals, but I can't sleep!
I think I will have to get to sleep eventually, might as well try again!

Update

Alright, my paper is just about finished. I am ready to start my reference page. I jsut need to put the final touches on tomorrow, and I am DONE! I am so excited, it has been a heck of a few days, but I managed to type a report totalling about 35 pages in length. I was worried about getting to the 20 that was required, instead...I passed the maximum30. I think I will be okay though. It is just the way the paper if formatted. NExt update will be my grade...but that will be about 4 weeks away, so since I have to wait...so do you!

Valentine's Day

I hate V day! It is really bad when you don't have someone, but I don't think it is the worse. You see...you know your aren't dating anyone, so you know you won't get a valentine. Except from your friends and parents of course (not the ones you hope for :) ) But....when you are seeing someone, you wonder....hmmm....is it too early? Is he romantic? Did he really forget it, or is he holding out to surprise you? I think in my case, he forgot! Or doesn't care! I guess I will ahve to find out, but he has to work OT on Mon and Tues, so I doubt I will get to talk to him, little lone see him. I barely get to talk to him when he works normal time! I hate Vday! It is the lonliest holiday, even when you are dating someone!
Oh well! It isn't like this will be the first Vday alone....I have spent many alone....matter of fact, I have only had one Vday with a special someone, and we were technically broken up! Not one I want to remember....but it is the only one I have so far!

This paper sucks!

Okay, so I finally got off my lazy ass, and decided to start typing. Well, apparently I got type happy and no I have too much. I am on page 29, and still ahve at least another 10 pages of required info to put into it. I don't know where to cut. I don't know what to do. I hope I just don't get docked for writing too much! I am sure I can tone it down in some places, but 10 pages? I don't know! I have two more full days planned to work on it, but for tonight....I am done! I may hand write some diagnosis ideas, but no more typing. Kepp you updated as I know what is going on!

still procrastinating....

I am still procrastinating. I got started at least yesterday. I wrote 4 sentences, then i was done! I hate papers as you can see! I guess I had better get started.....I'll keep you posted on my progress, I don't see it going that fast though!

School Papers

Hello again, I am horrible at writing freq, bear with me! I am on my computer right now, supposed to be starting my paper. I keep procrastinating. This paper is due in one week! I have had 6 months to work on it, but do you think I have started yet? Nope! I haven't! And what am I doing now? Nothing, I am typing on my blog! I really should get started, but it is just the fact of getting started. I have set aside this afternoon, tomorrow afternoon and allday Sat, Sun and Mon. I think I should be able to get it done by then. That still leaves me with a couple days to relax before it is due! I know you are prpbab;y thinking why not just get it done, it can't be that bad, right? Wrong, it can be that bad and it is that bad. I hate papers, I am not an English major I am a nursing student! I didn't choose to write papers as my life goal. I hate them, and besides this is not just a paper, it is the top dog of papers. It is a 30 page paper on a patient I took care of, and I have to basically spell out everything I did for the patient, and everything that I need to know about taking care of patients with the disease process and...and...and......exactly, not just a paper! But, I guess if I want to get it done, I actually have to start it! So....here goes nothing!

So here goes nothing, I am becoming a blogger!!

Okay, so I am in nursing school and only 5 months to go. I am not looking for anyone to get in the way of that. Right, we all know how that goes. See, when I get into relationships, I focus on the relationship, who cares what else is important in my life, I have a relationship to focus on. So, that is why I KNEW I was NOT to get into a relationship. Grr...well I met someone. Nothing serious yet just a few "dates" and a few kisses, no big deal, right? WRONG! That is already too much. I hate dating! School has already suffered and I hate that. I am too close to my dream of becoming an RN. I must back off, I must focus on school. Well that was easy....school #1......boy #10. I have a long lists of other things I need to focus on right now too! Yes, boy must be far down on list. If he gets too high on the list, then you know how fast the game can turn, he could be in first place before I even have a clue what is going on!....yes....maybe #11, or 12 would be best...but it is fun kissing him and hanging out with him....I guess #10 will have to do!

Just for Mara

Hello,
I never had a journal or diary in my life, so I have no clue why I thought I would be able to keep this up, but I will try! My friend Mara has a blog and I wanted to post a comment on it, so I had to sign up! I will try to keep you all updated in my daily life, but I am a very busy person, so check back often, just not too often! Hehe!
Well, until then....