Surviving

Well, I am home now, without Charlie. It was really hard to come home and see his bed, toys and food dish exactly the way we left it. I wasn't expecting to say goodbye at all, little lone this weekend. It just kind of happened.

I am surviving without him, but it is very sad. I miss him jumping up at the side of my bed wanting to be up there with me.

I miss him rolling on the floor with his toy in his mouth.

I miss him laying on my lap at night while I watch tv.

I miss his big beautiful brown eyes.

I even miss his licking me. I know, I never thought I would miss that since I hated it so much. But, it was a part of him, and I love him so much, so I miss that too.

I know that Steve can provide attention and training that I never could. I know that he will have fun with Steve's other dog, Tux. I know that he probably just thinks he is staying with Steve for a few days, and he expects me to walk in the door any day now.

I will keep trying to live without him, but I am not sure it will last. I miss him so much, and I still cry everyday for him. I hope he knows how much I love him, and miss him.

If I can't stand it anymore, I will drive home and pick him up! I miss him so much!!

In Loving Memory of Charlie...

Well, I did it. I had to get rid of Charlie. I found a great home for him to go.

Steve took him.

Steve is my cousin that I lived with for a year before moving out here. Charlie knows Steve. And Steve loves Charlie. He used to take him everywhere Steve went.

So, I am happy that Charlie has a good home now. He will be able to spend more time with him than I can, and hopefully will get him trained.

So, the best thing about this deal is two things.

1) I can see him whenever I want, since he is still in the family.

2) Steve said I can have him back anytime I want him. If my situation changes, where I can spend more time with him, then I can have him back. He also promised never to get rid of him without first checking with me!

So, even though Charlie is gone, he is still with me in a way.

I am very sad though. I cried myself to sleep last night. It is very hard saying goodbye to someone you love with all your heart. Especially when they don't really know what is going on.

I don't think he realizes he isn't going to snuggle with me anymore, play with the same toys, sleep in his bed, or do any of the things he loved to do with...me anymore.

I am crying just thinking of all the good times we had together, and I cry to think of all the good times we will never have again. He is so cute, and so lovable. I am goona miss him so much!

I love you Charlie!!

They have moved in...

Jen, Joel, and Grason have officially moved in. It is great waking up and seeing Grason in the morning. We are gonna be very cramped for two months, but it will be fun! I don't even hear him in the middle of the night, so I am not concerned about not getting sleep.
Weight update...I have lost 14 lbs so far with running, weights, and weight watchers. I haven't been doing as good with running as I would have liked, but at least I am running again.
I am homoe for the weekend, I am gonna try to get lots of running in. I haven't ran since last Sunday since I have been picking up so many shifts at work. Plus, the weather has been really cold, windy, or both. Cold I can handle, its the wind I hate.
Next...everyone wants me to get rid of Charlie. I know that it will be best for him, to go to a home that can love him all day long. That has a big backyard, and maybe even some kids. I cry just thinking about it, but no one in my family likes Charlie.
He isn't house broke, he pees/poops occasionally. Sometimes he will tell me, but sometimes he doesn't. So, they all think I need to pass him on to a family that can train him. I tried, and I love him so much, but I just don't think I am doing him justice. He has so much potential. You see, I too can have soo much more potential. I will be able to do things without having to worry about my dog, or what to do with him for the weekend when I want to go out of town. I am so sad to think of handing him over to someone, but I think it will be the best for us both.
So, if anyone knows a great family, that wouldn't mind training an old dog new tricks, then let me know. He is a pure bred Dachshund (no papers), and he just turned 2 years old. He mostly tells me when he needs to go out, but he does have his "accident" several times a week. I just don't have the time to devote to train him properly. I work 12 hour shifts, so sometimes he has to be in a cage for long hours.
Please, if you know anyone, let me know!

T Minus 1 week...and counting...

Jen, Joel and Grason move-in in one week from today.

Yeah!!!

I am trying to get some last minute details all doen for them. I have finished cleaning out my closet, threw away a whole bunch more stuff. I still have to find places to put a few things, but mostly all cleared out.

I still have to clean out my bathroom. I have so much stuff, it is hard to find places. I know this will be tight living for a while, but I know it will be fun!!

Besides, after this, I won't get to see them, but a few times a year. I moved over here, because that is the way it was before I moved here. Me only getting to come visit a few times. Now, I have to go back home to visit. Oh well, more excuses to go I guess.

Plus, I have my neice due March 12th. I personally have predicted March 4th, but we will have to wait and see. Doctor told her she can have it any day now. I can't wait!! I hope I can be there for the birth, but I may not cuz I have a job.

So, point to my post. T minus 1 week and counting...Jen moves in next Sunday!!!

RN=Real Nurse

I got pulled into my bosses office yesterday.

She said the words " I need to talk to you."

I thought to myself, crap, what did I do this time?

So, in the afternoon, I managed to get a moment off the floor, and go see what she needs to talk to me about.

I knock on the door.

The door opens, and my 2 bosses are in there.

They say "come in."

The door closes. My heart is pounding, I have no clue what I have done wrong to need two managers in the office to speak to me. I thought I was doing good. Almost ready to be done.

"CONGRATULATIONS!!!" they say.

I was shocked. Sort of, I mean I have been waiting to hear those words for days, weeks, months now, but was expecting some constructive criticism today.

Yeah!!! So that means, I have been set free. I am officially "on my own". I no longer need a preceptor. They all feel I have reached the safe level of critical care nursing.

They got me a card, and a $25 gift certificate to PF Changs. I don't eat Chinese food, but hey, I may try some now!!

Oh yeah, and I was the first one of the new grads to be cut free!!! That makes me feel better too. I don't know why, it just does. They are all close behind me, but it just feels good to be the first.

So, RN now equals Real Nurse!!